i went through your notes. seems like u were pretty depressed back then. but hey! cheer up! u’re cute :)
LOLLLLLLL Thank you! @prettyseriouslycute
She’s the main reason i’m not wanting to leave portland but at the same the the reason why I want to leave. It’s so fucking stressful dealing with her. We normally are fine but for some reason she always mood swings and it just gets awful because we are both the type of people to stay quite when we are mad. Idk what to do anymore, i’m just super overwhelmed… .
I talked to her today. I loved it. It was so sweet. We just chit chatted. It was very relaxing. But I miss her a lot and I told her that I did. I hope we get to talk more even if we aren’t together I just want us to be close. I really wanted to see her today.
So today I found out my friend was in the hospital… . I went there as fast as I could to go see him. She was there… . Everyone was there… I helped the people who were crying and I tried to hold in my tears as best as I could. I had to walk away for a second so I could collect myself, so I sat in the waiting room by myself because I didn’t want anyone to see me lose it. She walked in and held me close again … like how it used to be… I fucking started bawling. I couldn’t control myself. I cried so fucking much and I hate that I still feel comfortable around her to the point where I can cry in front of her. I hate that I miss her so much. I hate that she came to comfort me only to later leave me again by myself. I hate myself… Well i’m glad that it seems like my friend is doing better from what I could see. My wishes are out to you bro, I know you’re going to get better because you’re strong and stubborn like that and you would never leave me like this. I love you a lot.
Ugh my feels